Social Anxiety

Social anxiety is running into the roommate of the girl you unsuccessfully asked out and accepting weed because you gotta be cool right (even though you told yourself earlier you weren't going to smoke today) and talking for a while in a loud place in a confusing way and the whole time you know that they know and they know you know they know etc. etc. and the addition of weed means the air feels like it is made of marmalade. Then the show starts and you end of standing kind of near them because neither of you is actively pushing in and oh god arm brushes are happening and you think hope she doesn't think you're hitting on her and you hate this guy's curly hair and why the fuck is this obnoxious old lady here and ok now you aren't next to her you are next to wait is this person in one of your classes and oh god more ambrushing and ok now you're behind them and they are dancing are they meaning to make contact with your crotch ok no god back away and you are between her and who you assume is her boyfriend and there keepe being these little contacts and they make you nervous and god you're sweating and is your coat brushing against her ass and why do you smell like cheese why in god's name do you smell like cheese and your chest is tight and ok... deep breath... gotta live in the moment dance and listen to the music god why to I even go to shows anyway?